Friday, July 19, 2019

Mid-Life

I think I’m hitting my mid-life wander/wonder... Holy crap - I’m almost 40. 

I do not feel almost 40. I still feel 35. Questioning my parenting, questioning if I’ll be at my job in another 10 years – or will I age out? I like being goofy! 

I’ve been seeing cardinal birds almost every day. I swore they carry a message of sorts. Mom told me they carry a spiritual message. 

I started listening to BrenĂ© Brown and love her... 

I’ve had a HUGE itch for our family to travel and being green with envy at my friends who can hop, skip, and jump with their kids. I want to hike but Hannah is just not there yet (running off, no endurance, too big for a backpack). 

I want more experiences and less STUFF. 

I feel like all of these things are adding up to some sort of mid-life... something. Not a crisis. Change? 

Nora + New Friends

The girls have been having a great time at “Summer Camp” – school summer daycare. 

I learned our babysitter’s younger sister, Kate (who has Ds) attends and Nora said there’s another girl headed into 5th grade with Ds also - Megan. Nora said Megan does Nora’s hair at camp - pretend salon play. 

Tim and I picked up the girls from camp today and as Nora was leaving, Megan rushed over to Nora and they hugged goodbye. My breath caught and I can’t describe my emotion. 

It wasn’t pride... or maybe it was?? Nora isn’t being nice to Megan because it’s the “nice thing to do.” She made a connection with a girl who has Ds on her own terms. Which is exactly what I hope for all children - typical or not. Making connections on a human level - not frightened away by differences. 

I’m actually happy Nora has a sister who may be seen as different. Hopefully then my oldest will have that extra layer of compassion and acceptance. 

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